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Recently I feel depressed for most of the time - I don't have a job (I'm trying to find it), my sister is freaking out or complainig all the time, my parents think that whatever I do I do it wrong. I want to hug someone, but mostly I hear just excuses. I'm tired, really tired.

But I've seen Slumdog Millionaire yesterday. It was really nice - great music and songs.

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My Location: Cracow
My Mood: cold cold
My music: Paper Planes - Slumdog Millionaire OST

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Why do I have to feel like crapp during and after my mother's visits? Digging trenches would be easier and less tiring that those visits. I'm 5 feet 1 inch tall, I weight around 110 punds and I know I have a little bit too much fat on hips and butt. But my mother says that I'm overweight. On the other side everyone else than my mother and my sister says that I look good and healthy. According to the statistics it's me who should be strongly influenced by colour magazines about fashion and with photos of skeleton models. I'm noy going to force myself to loose weight, cause I know it can be dangerous. When I started studying at the university, I lost 10 pounds (around one tenth of my body weight at that time) and I felt bad. I had problems with heart when I was using stairs to get to my apartament on the second floor (ground floor, first floor, second floor) and I had strong twitches of muscles in my calves. So I don't believe in any restrictive diet. More important is keeping stable weight, not constant dieting.

On Thursday I finally met with Mark. Last time we met at the beginning of December after my Master degree thesis exam and just before his 25th birthday. We had a kind of Valentine's meeting. We didn't do that yesterday cause Mark had to be available on weekend. Daughter of his parents' friends supposed to give a birth to her child (but not his) a week ago, but it didn't happen. And her mother has broken leg, sister is in Katowice, brother in Ireland and rest of family is at work. So Mark is only person with driving licence that has a lot of free time. I was so happy and my mother had to destroy that. When I got back to my apartament I sent Mark sms: I had a great time. See you soon. I want to kiss you in more serious way........

Weather in Cracow is very very snowy.

My Location: Cracow
My Mood: crappy crappy

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On Monday I went to a cinema to see Defiance. It was quite good. Of course some facts were changed - Tuvia Bielski spoke fluently Polish and Yiddish; he didn't speak German and Russian well - they were foreign languages for him. Most of Nowogródek (Navahrudak) citizens were Jewish (circa 50%), Polish (circa 25%) or Belarussian (circa 20%). The movie was something different. I didn't care about the reviews or what newspapers were saying about this, cause I know such things can spoil pleasure of watching a movie.

Daniel Craig was good, but sometimes he was forgetting that he's playing a Jew from Belarus and there are moments when he changes accent from Jewish/Slavic to his normal accent (British). I don't have any objections to the way the movie was made.

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My Location: My apartament
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My Location: In front of the computer
My Mood: bitchy bitchy
My music: Silence

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My parents came for a weekend and now when they left I feel really really bad. They always talk to me in such way that I want to lay down and don't move til I disappear. I feel that according to my parents and my sister I do everything wrong - doesn't matter if it's choosing book to read, clothes to wear, people to meet, events to go or things to eat - each decision I make is wrong. How can I be a confident person when I'm constantly undermined by members of my own family. Nobody tells me anything and than strange things are happening cause I didn't know something. My mother says that compering to other girls I look like a mouse. Maybe I want to look like mouse. I don't want to be Barbie. 

Today I decided to go to Massolit Cafe to spend some time with other people. I've got half of the bottle of vodka, but it's a little bit stupid to drink it all just by myself. I'm still looking for job. Now I'm on apprenticeship at real estate website www.krn.pl and try to find something else. I keep reading books to stay sane and sometimes forget about reality.

My Location: My apartament
My Mood: crappy crappy
My music: Sabaton - Ghost Division.

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This are first two books I had read since January 1. Description of the rest I will post later.
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My Mood: calm calm

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I have to admit this. I went to cinema to see Twilight. I gotta say that Robert Pattinson was good and Kirsten Stewart was rather stiff.



I love this a little bit scruffy looks.

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My Mood: depressed depressed
My music: Sabaton - Primo victoria

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Today there is 17th Finale of Great Orchestra of Christmas Charity. The money collected today are going to be spend on equipment for early detection of cancer among kids.

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My Mood: calm calm

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Title: Luxurious Lady
Author:maryweasley 
Pairing: Ginny Weasley/Gregory Goyle
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance
Summary: Draco and Pansy love theme parties and this time the idea was just in their style.

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My Location: Cracow, Poland
My Mood: creative creative

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On New Year's Eve I went to a cinema, cause I had an invitation that I had to use til the end of year 2008. I went to see movie called Little Moscow. Very nice movie and not completely melodrama - for sure not in an American way.

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My Mood: crappy crappy

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